Not Enough
It is interesting to see how much a person measures him/herself. I have recently found myself doing the same thing. Do I have what it takes? If i do have “it”, what is “it”. Constantly, I am in the search of an answer I do not the the question to. Do we really measure ourselves by lining up with the rest of the world? Ever individual is in the constant fight to be better than each other. That’s not a measurement, thats a contest. I am not here for this contest. If i do decide to compete, what is my prize? I know! The prize will be bragging right for this mediocre bubble we call life. If that is the case, leave me out of this race. Believe what you will. When is the last time you (the reader) did not do something just to be ahead? You push yourself and you keep on pushing to the point that there is no fight left in you. Then, one day you look back on your life and you see all you have done and what do you do? You compare. You compare yourself to everyone you have ever known to make justification of all the good you have done. I am not saying for a person not to push themselves to be the best. What I am saying that there is a thin line between doing it for yourself and doing it for a reward. It the end, we justify ourself to realize who you actually are. I have come close, I have almost fell into the trap of this contest. I have pushed myself and I am at this point where nothing was worth it. However, I can”t help to feel bland when I think that I have also been competed against. I will be used as a tool of measurement, and I will fall short.
falling into that trap, that contest, is often healthy even if the reason behind your willingness to engage in the competition is as trivial as getting ahead of other people and wanting to earn bragging rights for this mediocre bubble we call life. for one, it gives them something to do. and two, if you get everyone to dig deep and only do things for themselves and not involve their desire to seek the acceptance of other people they may simply fall into a state of satisfaction, which is not the healthiest place to be.
If people start to find no need or desire to compare the things they’ve done to other people and when they stop wanting to be “better” at life than others – then everyone may just simply stop wanting and find themselves in a state of “satisfaction” (for a lack of better term). when they come to that point – What is there to live for when you no longer desire anything in this life?
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August 23, 2008 at 12:30 pm