Lost
What can I say? For the first time in my life, I have nothing to say. I know I screwed up. I had somehting there sitting right there in front of me. What do I do? I let it go away! Why even write? I have overlooked soemthing that will affect not just today, but my whole life. I am personally blamed for my own let down. I am not saying that I will end my life. However, it will affect my direction for the rest of my life. I had soemhtign right there that would be a sure thing for me and everyone around me. It is so funny how you never realize what you could have. Instead, you look for what ifs! What if I do this? Or what if I do that? Enough of this and that, it’s time to look for NOW. I am my own person, I cannot let others ideas and directions (for me) affect my decision. It is crazy. I am LOST! Where do i go from here. I kept on digging my own grave and I never realized it. Now, I mus worry about what is to be. Whereas, I could have worred about what is to come and what would I do with it. It sounds the the same, but there is a thin line. I know I might be little confusing, but who cares. This is my outlet to write and figure things out; but, i am still lost.
