Everything

It’s interesting how the day plays out at time. It is interesting to witness one thing and have a reaction that is not the norm. It is also interesting to see the expressions on other people’s faces when you are acting out of the norm. Now, acting out of the norm may be the norm for some people. Certain people’s norm is not norm at all. However, it is a way of life and it becomes a norm to them. I am just rambling and typing at the same time. This is about nothing. However, that is the interesting matter; to write about nothing at all. I look over my shoulder and realize that everyone is functioning and everyone is following through with there day to day activity. That is funny to me. We are nothing but bees in a beehive. We all have our own duties to do. Not just at work, but in life. The same reason the receptionist brings the boss coffee is the same reason why the boss picks up the dry cleaning for his wife. Interesting who people really are and what they do when placed in their norm. This is why life is interesting and the day to day moments are just made up of little factors that, as a whole,, feed into a filter which generates into actions of this everyday mediocrity of life. The thoughts are endless, as well as interesting.

The inspiration for this post comes from this song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=amwVyRH2B8A

“Think rational and hold still, when the light will come, it will shine on you. Days may seem dim and nights may seem darker, but her smile will make the days brighter.” Eric thought. All Eric needed is her hand in his hand to make this day breathe better. Simplicity no longer seems easy to Eric; the thoughts from the mind drive him close to the edge. People passing by him keep on walking without a glance. He is just a shadow in the crowd. However, they know where the source of sadness is. It is the one that sulks as he walks. It’s the one that drowns his own eyes in his own tears. Change is to come, but when? Thinking to himself, “Oh, love will come set me free. I do believe. Love will come set me free.”

The heart knows what it wants, but the mind begs to differ. The mind wanders in ten different directions to find justification in oneself. Oh, love will come set me free. Eric sings to himself over and over. He waits for the days where soft hands dry his tears and he no longer walks alone in a crowd where he is the unknown. Her smile sets the day’s mood with soft kisses to the cheek and a warm hand to hold on the walk home. Caught up in his thoughts, “Oh, love will come set me free. I do believe. Love will come set me free.”

Eric still waits for the day for that day to come. He looks intently out the window everyday, waiting for something amazing to happen. He just wants the truth of what there really is out there. Eric looks to the days when soberness of a happy life was clear and the stars were a wonder. Looking up to the sky now is another chore; gazing the sky for a shooter so that he may wish for a change. “What happened to the days where you were rewarded for your efforts?” Now, efforts are nothing unless he gets what he wants. Eric pleading, “Oh, love will come set me free. I do believe. Love will come set me free.”

Eric does not know why he feels bad about the things he says. Questions keep popping into his head like, “Why do I look to better days to come instead of looking to better days that have passed?” Oh please tell him that love will come set him free. He can’t explain why he lives this way. He is just living to find better days. With a defeated voice, he exclaims, “I still sit here in the dark for a day that love will come set me free. I do believe. Love will come set me free. “

What is the reason for people to stop thinking with their head and rely on their heart? Emotions have taking over the body as a whole. It affects the sleep and appetite. It also takes a toll on a person mentally, physically, and emotionally (of course). It is like a disease which has infected not just one’s body, but soul.  Falling is the worst a person can ever do. You let all your inhibitions go and have drowned in a lake of self guilt and not good enough’s. The heart speaks in its own tongue, but I do not understand it. All I know that it wants what it wants, but can never get what it truly wants. Settling becomes regular. Emotion, no need to come out no more! You have been pushed back into a cave with no return! No more reason to wait, no more reason to pout, and no more reason to believe in a complete idiotic need. It was never a need, always a want. People do not always get what they want. Why should the heart be any different? A person is torn between the real and the fantasy. The fantasy is always driven by emotions which are the worst place you can let thought go. This disease has taken over the body and has infected the inner self of a person with fake stories and happy fake thoughts. Forget the wrong doing of yourself. get yourself better. Get up and get out. Being locked in a closet where the only thing you have is your emotions to entertain you is not worth the pain you have when you finally get out as your emotions have lingered. Mine as well throw in a gun with one bullet. Entertain yourself with a fun game of Russian roulette rather than diluting yourself in obsession. The point is not to let emotions get to you. Live your life, and live it good.